I’m feeling exceptionally emotional right now. But that’s ok.
Mr. Craig’s List fits into the “It’s Complicated” category. He cancelled on me again and then admitted he’s probably going to be away on business for the month of May. Aha, the truth comes out. So, I told him it was probably best for us to move on. And it hadn’t even gotten started yet. He said he’s not giving up on it yet, but I think I have. Why should I set myself up for disappointment? I’ll always be 2nd fiddle.
And then I spent the day today with someone else. He is a reader of this blog, so I’ll just say that I had such a good time with you and I hope we can do it again soon. You’re so easy to talk to and have fun with.
I’m learning some valuable lessons this week.
1) I think the walls that I’ve put up for years are finally coming down. I can see that I can emote and feel and care about men again! Horrah!
2) When you finally let go and love yourself, it really opens up the opportunity for you to care about others.
3) I feel sad and hopefully and all sorts of things tonight. And that’s ok.
My head is spinning and I think I’m going to end this now before I say too much.